Why am I awake?

Five minutes until 6am. I'm tired, but I don't want to go to sleep. Ever feel like that? Like you feel like you'll miss something if you go to sleep? Like the fuckin pope is gonna come knocking on your door or some more probable shit. Anyways I'm not asleep. But it feels like I missed the window of opportunity to sleep and if I go to bed now I'll be all fucked up again and sleep till 5pm. But time isn't real so why should I care? Sigh, any thoughts Charles?